that's not a black and white issue for me.
i stopped racing road regularly about 3 years ago after having done full seasons going back to the 70s.
how many times can one do a fitchburg or a concord (nh) crit or a superweek or the natz before it's the same corner on the same street in the same town, blah blah blah.
the 'cross season, while a bit shorter on the calendar has almost as many events, and the scene suits me.
there are moments when my head isn't in the race, and my results can't hide them.
but rarely do i get on a bicycle for a ride without the goal of "next week's event" being on my mind.
and even when my personal connection is frayed, i still have a team that has been part of my weekends and business since 1982.
i'd say all of it is inseparable.
if you read any of the other posts or articles (and interviews) on my site, it's clear that bicycles, in and of themselves, don't drive me.
were it not for racing (as well as a few unplanned forks in the road) way back when, i never would have cared to get a second 10 speed bicycle.
but all of these issues intersect when, as a 57 year old, i wonder how much longer i will want to beat up on others every weekend.
the fields are huge and the competition is deep, and i am not winning every sunday, but the carrot is still there.
and then there is the queue.
perhaps when all of these what-ifs meet at the crossroad, i'll have finished the orders and would also end the race thing.
at that point, who knows - maybe i'd build frames without a concern for my income and could ride just for fun atmo.
now there's a thought: a life without a bottom line or a finish line.